Lizzie's Poetry

I can only imagine
Holding the razors against my skin
I can only imagine
How deep the razors go in
I can only imagine
Watching my blood go
I can only imagine
How much blood does flow
I can only imagine
The blood and the pain
Coz I can only imagine
How it feels to cut again

As I cut into my skin

Long for the cuts
I long for the pain
I long to see
the blood again
But deep down inside
This I know
I'm stronger than this
The razors have to go
But for some unknown reason
I can't throw them away
For some stupid reason
I let them stay

The long white lines
Run up my legs
And up my arms
And on my chest
They're everywhere
These long white lines
Mapping out
the suffering times
A constant reminder
Of what I've been through
And
What I'm going through
But most importantly
a constant reminder
of why
I have
to stop


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Cutting up my arms

Cutting up my arms
Slice after slice
Making me feel calm
Cutting feels so nice

Cutting away the anger
Cutting away the pain
Cutting away the feelings
That's so hard to explain

Bleeding out the tension
Bleeding out the sin
Bleeding out the sorrow

The lovely warm blood runs down my arm
Drips of my fingers, makes me feel calm
So beautiful this shade of red
Can't take my eyes off the blood I shed
As more and more blood pours out of the wound
There's such a relief, goes up does my mood
But when I suddenly come out of the trance
Try to stop the blood my guilt is enhanced
U see I'm trapped in a huge mess
I cannot stop or harm myself less

In just a few minutes
I've lost it all
In just a few minutes
I've given in
In just a few minutes
I cry out and howl
In just a few minutes
I've cut through the skin

In just a few hours
The feelings come back
In just a few hours
The release ends
In just a few hours
I've lost track
In just a few hours
I'm driven round the bend

In just a few days
I've done it again
In just a few days
My its twice as bad
In just a few days
To much is the pain
In just a few days
my limit I've had

In just a few months
addicted I am
In just a few months
the amount of scars grow
In just a few months
I'm trapped in the scam
In just a few months
But no one can know